last 1/11 you told me that you loved me
but if you told me now i don’t think that you’d mean it
you say you’re still in love but i don’t make your heart beat
and you could easily let me go if you don’t think you still feel it

yeah, maybe we’re still us but you’re not the same
and love becomes lust as we count up the days
and roses wilt when you don’t water it for too long
maybe we’re still us but everything has changed

365 what’s happening to us
365 it really isn’t much
and our love would wilt if we let this go on
it’s only been a year what’s happening to us

still hurts to know that i lost the old you that i fell for
go back to him but i keep on forgetting that he’s not you anymore

yeah, i could spend a hundred nights trying to get over you
and it could be a hundred months that i’d still be mad at you
and i could tell myself a hundred times that i’m over you
but i admit that sometimes i wish i still had you

i shouldn’t be running back to you, but it’s hard for me not to
you were so toxic and i shouldn’t be ignoring that side of you

and i could spend a hundred nights trying to get over you
and it could be a hundred months that i’d still be mad at you
and i could tell myself a hundred times that i’m over you
but i admit that sometimes i wish i still had you

don’t get me wrong, i’m not forgiving you, no i won’t
and my heart wants to hate you, but i’m losing my self control

and i could spend a hundred nights trying to get over you
and it could be a hundred months that i’d still be mad at you
and i could tell myself a hundred times that i’m over you
but i admit that sometimes i wish i still had you

no, i wish i still had you x3

and i could spend a hundred nights trying to get over you
and it could be a hundred months that i’d still be mad at you
and i could tell myself a hundred times that i’m over you
but i admit that sometimes i wish i still had you

don’t get me wrong, i can’t forgive you after you hurt me so
it’s hard for me to hate you, i’m not used to this, don’t you know?

no, i wish i still had you x2

swear to god this isn’t love
oh no, not even close enough
were hanging by a thread for months
tried to sew us back but we fell apart

‘cause we went one step too far, one step too much
we were so reckless, couldn’t get enough

is it too late to feel regretful now?
it’s too late, i’ve already let god down
i know i made a mess of this
and i’m gonna clean it all up
yeah, i made a mess of this
now i’ve gotta clear it till there’s nothing left of us

swear to god this isn’t love
‘cause love doesn’t tell you you’re not good enough
it seemed brave of us at first to try
threw a grenade at ourselves and we didn’t realise

is it too late to feel regretful now?
it’s too late, i’ve already let god down
i know i made a mess of this
and i’m gonna clean it all up
yeah, i made a mess of this
now i’ve gotta clear it till there’s nothing left of us

can’t give any more
can’t take this no more
i’m done being used all over
can’t give any more
can’t take this no more
please tell me i’m finally sober (x2)

(we went one step too far, one step too much
we were so reckless, couldn’t get enough)

is it too late to feel regretful now?
it’s too late, i’ve already let god down
i know i made a mess of this
and i’m gonna clean it all up
yeah, i made a mess of this
now i’ve gotta clear it till there’s nothing left of us

(we went one step too far, one step too much
we were so reckless, couldn’t get enough) (x2)

is it too late to feel regretful now?
not really, i’m done letting myself down
i know i made a mess of me
but i’ll be better when i wake up
i made a mess of me
now i’ve gotta tell myself there’s nothing left of us

this’ll be hard ‘cause i’ve always been afraid of letting go
it’s a habit, yeah it’s getting old
this’ll be hard ‘cause i seem to have a stronger hold
onto memories that never turned to gold

i used to have a boyfriend, he meant everything back then
and i thought we were forever so i kept on holding on
but i found it wasn’t meant to be, so there’s no reason to stay there
but god knows what will happen
i just know things come and go and we’re gone

didn’t have to break in order to know that we couldn’t bend
running low, but i’d still hang on then
i woke up alone in an empty room, thinking this was the end
didn’t believe i could begin again

i used to have a boyfriend, well he never really cared
and i knew we weren’t forever but i just couldn’t move on
but i found if it’s not meant to be then there’s no reason to stay there
cause god knows what will happen
i just know things come and go and we’re gone

we ran out of time, i know
winter went fast, gone with the cold
and people you once knew best turn to strangers you don’t know
yeah we’ve run out of time
and i’ve gotta go

i used to have a boyfriend, and it’s been over a year
we know it wasn’t forever, we’re done and i moved on
oh, it’s been so far away from here since i last watched it fade to air
can’t wait to see what happens
but love comes and goes and we’re gone

i spent so much time trying to pick the little pieces left of us off the floor
that i gave you less attention cause i was only trying to fix this
and i spent so much time obsessing over the fact that none of this was my fault
that i made more of a mess here
i wasn’t helping the situation

we’ve been falling apart since the first time you left me
and you’ve gotta admit it, our love’s never felt so empty

i let you down one too many times
and i still thought it was your fault
loving was hard for us, i know
all this time, i took what we had for granted
and i’m here to say i’m sorry
god, i wish i would’ve known

god, i really should’ve known better, known better
oh, i really should’ve known better, known better, known better

lately, i spend all my time evaluating what i did that made us go wrong
did i change you into someone different? you weren’t like this when we started
and i spend most of my time in my room with my headphones on, staring at the blank walls
i couldn’t help but feel nothing, been hard for me to get through this

i let you down one too many times
and i still thought it was your fault
loving was hard for us, i know
all this time, yeah i mistook wanting for loving
and i wanted to apologise
i wish i would’ve known

god, i really should’ve known better, known better
oh, i really should’ve known better, known better, known better

oh, i wish i would’ve known
oh, oh i wish i would’ve known
oh i, oh i wish i would’ve known
no, should’ve never let you go (x2)

i will change and i will do better, do better
neither of us knew how to love each other
we were too young to understand
how things that last, they take it slow

remember when you used to call me up when it’s late?
fountains and roses, it all seems so far away

first love almost feels like an illusion, so brand new
and first love always feels like it means everything to you
i don’t remember the last time i remembered a dream so vividly

we were a beautiful dream
we were a beautiful dream

remember when you used me in every possible way
and nonchalantly left me crying for days?

when you think you’re in love, you don’t rationalise
your thoughts, you probably fantasise too much, so much that you turn blind
i lie in bed awake, thinking bout how you managed to make me believe

we were a beautiful dream
we were a beautiful dream

but all dreams come to an end
and it’ll hurt when you know that it’s over
but you have to wake up, and see
that it’s a dream, it’s the end
and now you’re back in the present, you’re sober
and it was all just some dumb fantasy

but now you’re out of my reach
and dreams were meant to be dreams
this dream won’t come back to me